Wenjie’s ramblings as he goes through this thing called life.
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You have your career mapped in front of you …
I had a lot of mixed feelings when I heard that. I do not know what to think, whether is it a praise, or just talk to ensure that I sell my soul to the company for the next few years?
Too tired to think and plot what to do next. I need a break. To think, to watch, to plan. I feel vulnerable now, not having the time and energy to analyse and plan counter-maneuvers.
I must get back in control.
A typical Sunday afternoon where everyone goes to NTUC and do their groceries.
For years we have been complaining about how long we have to wait for the buses, and for years we have been complaining about feeder services. For years, the SBS has been denying it, and coming out with so call facts and figures to prove that our complaints have not been valid.
Until now.
Transport minister announces major changes in land transport
Some of the key points to note in the above mentioned :
It is about time.
I think I have this thing call life figured out.
Sure, it took many, many years, and after successive failed attempts to decipher it, pouring through books and articles on faith, religion, Zen, self-sacrifice etc, I think I have it figured out.
No, it is not 42.
Life is a game, not just any other game, but a RPG (roleplaying game) one.
In a RPG, you start off weak, naked (well maybe a loincloth), a wooden stick perhaps and off you go, to kill some low level weak trash, like a mouse, or a cockroach. As you kill them, you gain experience points, gain some better armour or weapons, and in time, you gain a level. As you kill bigger monsters, you get even more powerful, gain even more levels, better gear, so that you can go out and kill even bigger monsters. And the cycle repeats itself. Until you get to the demi-god levels.
In life, it is the same. You start off knowing nothing. You go to school, armed yourself with the best spells and skills, go out and gain experience (through having a job, not killing someone of course). You get paid peanuts, but with experience gained, you get paid more, you go out and buy better items for yourself (like a new car, or a expensive apartment beside the sea), and you realised you want more, so you go out and gain even more experience, and the cycle repeats. Just like in a RPG.
It sure makes it easier to go through my life now that I had this figure out. Working 12 to 15 hours a day? Nothing to it, I am just farming for honor points or gold. Facing a demanding client? I am just having a bit of trouble killing a big boss. Falling sick after working non stop for more than a year? A potion of cure poison will cure that.
And of course, when it is pay day, it is just the loot I deserved after battling and overcoming a dragon guarding its treasure at the end of the long and dark dungeon.
However, there is still some minor part left that does not fit in. Where does love fits in? I do not recall playing any RPG that has any significant love in it. Unless it has to do with female night elves blood elves (someone insisted blood elves are hotter).
I mentioned about wanderlust back in 6th April 2007.
It was just before the current project. I ended up not going anywhere. At that time, the project seems to be a relatively stress-free and smooth one. I was so wrong.
I was promoted to the project lead just 2 weeks into the project because the original project lead was not available. The client was difficult, and as I am new to this role, it was a steep learning curve. Then it came to the implementation phase, where the vendor delivered empty promises one after another, not to mention the part where they did deliver, were full of problems. I ended up not clearing any leave in the year 2007. The project will be delayed for another 2 more months, and is currently schedule to launch end of March.
In the meantime, when I get the time to switch on the TV, which is very rarely, I switched to the channel Travel & Living. I simply love this channel. It brings me to places that I want to go, and places that I most probably will never get to see in my lifetime. For that brief period in front of the TV, I am temporary taking a dream vacation. And at the end of it, another is added to my list of ‘Things to Do Before I Die’.
Wanderlust is stirring the kender in me. I have a strong urge to grab my hoopak and go where the wind whispers to me.
Tags: travel, wanderlust
So after a year plus of non stop working, the machine breaks down.
Perhaps the few nights of unable to sleep well contributed to it.
Christmas came and left. New Year came and left. There seems to be a severe lacking of festival spirits this time around for me.
Obviously not going on a vacation is one major reason why I am not in a mood to celebrate. I guess the other reason was because I was working like a mad dog throughout this period.
For the first time in years, I have absolutely no idea what I want in the new year. I guess I am just too tired, or maybe there is really nothing to look forward to.
Tags: new year
