I Will Follow You Into The Dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I’ll be close behind
I’ll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
“Son fear is the heart of love”
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It’s nothing to cry about
’cause we’ll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the No’s on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

Character and Fate

So I was watching the last episode of this Hong Kong TV series. The three main characters were at a crossroad. One wanted to resign from his research position in the hospital to start his own private practice, the other a nurse who was wondering if he should follow his girlfriend to Singapore to help out with her father’s business.

The last main character told them bluntly that within less than a year, the one who wanted to start his own private practice will fail. This was because he likes research, and hates socialising or networking, and thus will not be able to attract business to his clinic. The other will quit Singapore, because he had no interest in business, or even have any idea of how to run one.

One year later, the one who started his own private practice was doing very well, and was about to open another clinic. The other became a successful CEO. They all put it down to the blunt and honest assessment of the third character, inspiring them to succeed and overcome their shortcomings.

At the end of the day, the message was that our character determines our fate, and if we can change our character, then it is possible to change our fate.

Is it really that simple? Are there no other variables in the equation? What about luck? What about factors that are beyond our control? Like weather, the family we are born into, or some divine intervention?

I had always believe that if I work hard enough, or want something bad enough, I will get it. What happened last year made me realise that there are also various other factors involved, variables that I have no control over. But I do not think that just because of these other factors, I am going to stop working hard if I want something. I want to tell myself that at least I had tried, and gave my best. If it is still not enough to get what I want, at least I tried.